Tuesday, May 13, 2008

The Parable of The Road

The Parable of The Road

There once was a builder who built a road. He closely studied his plans and specs, beginning by removing the old, rotted, unstable soil. Load after load, wet and rotted soil was removed. Then, trucks began to bring in fresh soil, at times mixing it with a special substance that would help harden the soil to make a firm foundation.
Bulldozers spread the dirt out, arranging and forming. Next came the road grater, smoothing, compacting; finally the roller rolled over and over, pressing, hardening. Dust would blow to and fro and a water truck came, sprinkling drops of water to blanket the dust. Day after day they repeated this action until a road emerged…new and stable…ready for use…



My husband, Paul, has been a builder for more than 45 years. He has worked just about every facet of the building industry, and now works as a Construction Superintendent building hospitals. It was not until recently that I really began to see the parallel of building and our spiritual walk in the Lord. There is the basic, obvious analogy that we understand…lay a good foundation…follow the blueprints…build according to code…but should we not strive to look past the obvious to find the deeper truths? Jesus often taught in parables, seemingly simple stories…Who hath ears to hear, let him hear - The Amplified Bible says it this way…He who has ears [to hear], let him be listening and let him consider and perceive and comprehend by hearing. However, many did not understand the depth and truths of the parables. We, ourselves, often read or hear a thing...we say we comprehend and have a grasp of it…we can memorize scripture, quoting chapter and verse…we take it and turn it into a mystic, goose bumped “prophetic” experience…write volumes and bestsellers about it…create divisive doctrines over it…yet have we really waited until the Holy Spirit speaks the deeper truth to our hearts wherein change occurs that brings glory to God?


At the present time, Paul and I are in Central Arkansas, south of Little Rock. He is building a Medical Wellness Center which will house exercise rooms, racquetball courts, offices and a pharmacy. On this particular job, there have been soil issues. When the property was purchased, it was all woods. After clearing the lot and the digging began, they discovered that the top layer of soil was sand with rotted vegetation. The deeper layers were wet with clay and water that did not drain. But at a depth of about 5 feet, there was suitable clay to build upon.
And so began the process of taking out the bad soil and bringing in the new. This is a costly task where every truckload must be accounted for. And as Paul has many details to attend to each day, he hired me to check the trucks in and out, signing each ticket. Every day there are several dump trucks taking out the rotted soil, bringing in the good soil. The track hoe digging, heavy equipment moving, dumping, rearranging, building.


On a particular morning, I was sitting at the entrance to the job site waiting for trucks to arrive, when the bulldozer came over to the entrance. The operator began directing the dump trucks to specific spots to dump their load, then he would begin to rough in and shape the new road. The specifications called for an incline, grades and curves to allow water to drain without ponding. Old soil had already been removed so load after load of new soil was brought in. As well as the good soil, they brought in a product called BAB. BAB is a by-product of industry that uses coal. After coal is burned, BAB is what is left over and when mixed with water, it hardens. So BAB was brought in to be mixed with the good soil in some areas and in other areas it would lay right on top of the dirt to create a hard surface - as in roads and parking lots.
In this process, all the material that is replacing the old soil is installed in layers. And every layer, by itself, is prepared for the next layer to go on top. If the layers are not prepared one at a time, then the layer that finishes the top, even though it may seem hard and stable, will eventually break down because the underlying foundation wasn’t prepared to hold the layers above.


It was during this process that day that I really began to truly see and understand the parallel. Over the past several years, Paul and I have been in positions where we have felt shaken to our very foundation. What we once thought “was” has been re-evaluated and redefined. Old attitudes and habits, wounds and perceptions had to be dealt with; beliefs and doctrines needed God’s definition and renewal. And it came and comes through many different ways, through many different vehicles. And each one shook us, leaving us at first, bewildered, then humbled and in awe of how God works, and finally, changed.


So, that day, dump trucks came, load after load full of good soil. The bull dozer driver began roughing in and shaping the road according to the stakes with markers along the sides. He would build more in one area to create the incline and curves…load upon load the dump trucks rolled in…loud and slamming the tailgates as the dirt poured out…dust blowing everywhere…over in another area, a parking lot was being formed…the road grater rolled over and over, smoothing as he went…there was constant movement and change and pressure…load after load…day after day…forming…compacting…smoothing. As I sat watching this, a different vehicle came down the newly formed road. I literally felt the earth shaking and vibrating. What an odd sensation. The vehicle is called a sheep foot roller and it was compacting…vibrating…pressure, pressure, pressure…at one point the dust was getting bad…a water truck came, sprinkling water upon the dusty road…soothing…you could almost sense the relief of the dust now settled…and what got my attention the most was the vibrating earth…being shaken and formed…with each new layer the roller compacted and shook all the material together to make it hard…a new road formed under pressure…being readied for use…

He who has ears [to hear], let him be listening and let him consider and perceive and comprehend by hearing...

Sunday, December 17, 2006

A Christmas Message

She walked out into the night...staring up into the stars...stopping...looking...searching...waiting...away from the lights and ribbons...stockings hung on the fireplace...presents under the tree...carols and cookies...lists to be completed...Christmas cards needing to be sent...packages yet to be mailed...she breathes a sigh...a burning in her heart...stars shining brightly above her...fleeting thoughts of parties to attend...gatherings of friends and loved ones...yet in the midst of the hustle and bustle of the season...she waits...
Her heart is strangely stilled as the Father speaks...words of comfort...the Spirit of Peace..."Speak daughter; tell them."...a message still unspoken...

If you will have the courage in this coming year...to allow God the Father, through Jesus Christ, His Son, by His Holy Spirit...to take away what He deems necessary to take away...a circumcision of the heart...He WILL show Himself to you as...HE WHO PROMISES IS FAITHFUL AND TRUE...in a way you have yet to understand...and the fruit will be a thankfulness that mere words cannot define.

She took one last look at the stars...it seemed almost as if they were twinkling brighter just for her...and she turned, walking back into her home...a heart purposed to speak a promise of God...because her heart, as well...was so very thankful...that mere words could not define...
(Patti Campbell-Jensvold, Christmas 2006).

The Lord bless thee and keep thee; the Lord make His face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee and give thee peace...Numbers 6:24-25.

Monday, October 02, 2006

Through Their Eyes

One day, while visiting with a precious friend, I observed how she struggled with the effects of criticism which had come against her in her lifetime. The Lord began to speak to me of how we see ourselves through others' eyes, the lasting effects and the snare of the enemy of our souls. And this is not an isolated incident, nor is it something that affects only a few..for it touches every life...we have all done it...we have all felt it.

The bible says...But the human tongue can be tamed by no man. It is a restless (undisciplined, irreconcilable) evil, full of deadly poison...with it we bless the Lord and Father and with it we curse men who were made in God's likeness...out of the same mouth come forth blessing and cursing...these things, my brethren, ought not to be so...(James 3:8-10 Ampified Bible).

Father, may we see through Your eyes...


The words came fast...some cloaked...some sharp...
...always sure to criticize
...my looks...my choices...
my ways...my life...all filtered through their eyes.

"Too outspoken...never listens...too independent...
different from us...that's where the problem lies."
...but truth be known...the things they judged...
were filtered through their eyes.

With wounded heart...emotions scarred...
relief is what I sought...
for through their eyes...I saw myself...
in shades of what they thought.

Uncertainty...fear of failure...a chip on my shoulder...
emotions to and fro...
unworthiness...desires waiting to be filled...
"I'll never be good enough, isn't that so?"

And so began the years of anger...hate...
and self contempt...
need...rejection...this war inside...constant...
leaving me spent.

I played the game...a smile on my face...
being friendly and sure to please...
but this pain inside...isolation...keeping distant...
often brought me to my knees.

"What is wrong with me...God are You watching?"...
deep sadness in my heart...
going here...going there...joining in among the others...
feeling separate...never a part.

And then one day I turned and heard His voice...
"My child, I AM Love...
You look at yourself through others' eyes...
instead from heaven above.

"Often through their eyes that see...themselves...
are full of scars...
they too have been judged by someone else...
wounded...emotions marred.

"But He was wounded for our transgressions...
He was bruised for our iniquity (Isaiah 53:5)
For My Son brought hope and healing...
when He hung upon that tree.

"Yes, I AM Jehova-ropheka...(Exodus 15:26)
and the healing for your heart...
I will never leave you...I won't forsake you...
My Spirit will never depart...

"if you will put your hand in My hand...
and trust Me with your life...
I will teach you how to walk in peace...
laying aside pain and strife.

"For I AM your God and your Creator...
and I fashioned you out of My heart...
your personality...your looks...your family...your days...
this in My plan...you are a part.

"I have loved you with an everlasting love...(Jeremiah 31:3)
now child, look to heaven above...
if you will change your focus from this world to Me...
I will fill you with My Love.

"I AM the Way...the Truth...and the Life...
through My eyes, there is freedom from pain...
I AM reaching out My hand to you...
trust Me...you will never be the same."

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Grandchildren

Looking on with wonder
singing, dancing
laughter and tears
fresh slates to write on
hearts to mold
beautiful innocence
unconditional love
stirring my emotions...
- a heart that grew - .

Monday, August 07, 2006

Tears

*There was a time when I was unable to cry. I could rant and rave and explode in bursts of rage, but tears were scarce. Oh, I did have a few pent-up torrents, but my tears were essentially dry.

*There was a day when God moved by complete Mercy...setting me free from chains of the past. I did not deserve it, did nothing to earn it; God decided - I was new!

*There was a release that caused my tears to flow...great and deep cleansing tears - bringing understanding, freedom, love, forgiveness, healing. First, He touched my heart - next, He touched my past - then, He touched my unshed tears...a Balm in Gilead.

*There was a praise that came in tears - a heart humbled and clean. I could not share of His Mercy without tears; my praise came through many heartfelt tears of gratitude.

*There was a call to walk His path, to lay down my understandings and definitions; to allow Him to strip away attitudes and traditions and fears; a re-alignment of me...bringing tears of confusion, tears of choice, a complete surrender when it made no sense...tears of rejections..tears of isolations and loneliness...even tears of anger.

*There was an occasion where a person spoke a scripture over us - Psalm 126:5...those who sow in tears shall reap in joy. I did not "connect" with it at that time, but marked the date and passage in my bible...thinking on it occasionally.

*There was a battle to be waged...that of Truth versus what we know...His heart burdens spoken...words piercing...the calling out as a watchman...anger stirred...tears flooding my days.

*There was a day of standing; "God, are You sure?"...the full armor of God in place...His Word and Voice ablaze in my heart...the battles raging, with doubts and fears assailing. I had thoughts of my past, trying to revisit, to affirm what they say. The tears seemed endless..."Father, how can this be?"

*There was an answer...His Word fulfilled...they that sow in tears SHALL reap in joy...causing such exquisite relief...Truth realized...literally standing and watching as He answers prayer, in His timing and His way...oh, who can pen such words to express a Father, Who is Faithful and True...a Savior, Who through His sufferings brings such provision...His Holy Spirit, leading and guiding us into all Truth...my words fail, yet He never fails! And the tears begin to fall...

Friday, July 21, 2006

The following is a birthday tribute for my Dad's 75th birthday...

A Talk
July 18, 2006
He looked into the mirror
to shave the stubble on his chin.
He draws a breath, a rugged sigh,
"Lord, it's me again!"
Another day is starting,
the thoughts begin to stray.
I wonder what will be in store,
and what will come my way?"
He goes outside to do his chores,
but mostly just to pray;
sitting down...his favorite spot...
he prepares for what he'll say.
The Lord speaks suddenly to his heart,
"Son, just please be still.
I have some things to say to you;
please listen, if you will.
"Seventy-five years ago,
My plans for you began.
And now as you sit before Me,
there are things to understand.
"Life is not the sum total
of your life's mistakes.
It's not success, nor where you failed,
not whether you're small or great.
"It's not your heartaches, it's not your joys,
nor accomplishments to behold.
Neither is it a series of events
to remember when you are old.
"For life is a gift I gave you;
I fashioned you with My heart.
I had a plan of you in mind;
these gifts did I impart...
"A man of convictions, a man of dreams,
dependable, resilient and strong,
a giver, a doer, a loyal friend,
standing firm when things go wrong.
"I made you a dreamer, a wanderer too,
yet a man who gets things done,
sometimes stern, sometimes tender,
a deep capacity to love."
And so he sits and thinks about
all the Lord has said.
He knows the talk is not quite done,
yet thoughts run through his head.
Before his mind could bring up thoughts
of memories long ago,
the Lord broke through and spoke again;
"Here is what you need to know...
"The day you bowed your heart
and asked Me to forgive,
that is when I cleansed you through,
and you began to live.
"For every man's a sinner,
and every man is flesh.
But when a man bows his heart,
My Spirit comes afresh.
"And now these gifts I gave you
will reflect My Son;
walking in the path I choose,
a servant you've become.
"Now serve Me with your whole heart;
don't look back, nor left or right.
Always keep your eyes fixed on Me,
for that is My delight!
"Don't let regrets fill your mind
or cause your heart to stray.
Just have faith and walk with Me,
I'll show you the way."
As the talk came to its end
he wiped a tear away.
His heart felt light and full of hope;
he knew how he would pray.
"Father, up in heaven,
I thank You for Your Son,
Who shed His blood on the cross,
so that we could be one.
"Thank You for forgiveness
and a brand new start.
I put my hope and trust in You;
I'll serve You with my heart."
And so the talk concluded;
he went about his day.
But his heart would always ponder,
all the Lord did say.
Patti Ann Campbell-Jensvold
July 9, 2006
Happy 75th birthday Dad!

Thursday, July 20, 2006

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